I built my own CrossFit gym. And somehow I kept training the same way I always do.
I love barbell. So I program barbell. Left to myself, that's where I drift - toward the stuff I'm already good at.
WodSpark didn't fail me here. The opposite. Its whole strength is pick-your-own freedom - and that freedom is exactly what showed me how I drift. Still use it when I want to build my own day. It just isn't a program.
Even my own gym didn't fix it. Over time my CrossFit programming just kept getting more fine-tuned - and fine-tuned mostly meant narrower. Sharper in my one lane, quietly worse everywhere else. I needed the training outside my niche, and I was never going to program that for myself.
Handing Off the Choosing
So I stopped choosing my own workouts. I just run what the coach writes.
It's not willpower and it's nothing pushing me - it's the same as running a coach's program at a real gym. The coach writes the week, you show up and do what's on the board. And the second I'm not the one choosing, I stop dodging the bands and the broad work outside my little barbell box.
A while back the program put a single-leg step-down in front of me. Slow lower, off a box, all the weight on one leg the whole way down. Not hard to picture why I'd never write that for myself - I've broken my femur twice, so my left leg never fully caught up. Left to my own devices, single-leg anything quietly falls off the plan.
I looked at it and thought, ehhh, I'm gonna hate this. But I trust the plan.
So I did it. And here's the thing - the months before had already been working. The core stuff, the posture stuff, all the quiet unglamorous programming had actually shown up in how I moved. So I knew this wasn't random. There was a reason it was there, even if the reason was a leg I'd rather not think about.
The One I Needed
Then I finished it and I just felt - satisfied. Not the way a good barbell day feels. Different. It filled in the exact gap I spend my whole life steering around. The workout I'd never have picked was the one I actually needed.
The workout I'd never have picked was the one I actually needed
The only reason I actually run it instead of resenting it - the workouts are good. Each one comes with a brief, the coaching shifts as you move through it, there's always one moment that makes the day its own. So the broad work doesn't feel like medicine. It reads like a session somebody who knows what they're doing wrote for you. Which is the point.
I still pick the vibe. Want next week barbell-heavy, I say so. The coach takes that and writes the whole week around it - and somewhere in there is all the stuff I'd never have put in myself. The bands. The normal lift-gym movements. The work that's good for me and not my favorite.
Then I just run it. No deciding at the gym, no swiping to whatever I feel like. The workout's already there and I trust where it came from. And I'm doing the broad, complete training I always meant to do - not because anything's making me, but because I finally handed the choosing to something better at it than my in-the-moment preferences.